Monday, May 18, 2009

10 Week Poll!

How far along? 10 weeks and 2 days
Total weight gain/loss: I am still at my Pre-Pregnancy Weight
Maternity clothes? Still no......Thank GOD!!
Stretch marks? Nope
Sleep: I am starting to get more energy but I still sleep all the time!
Best moment this week: Hmm, I think my Morning Sickness has let up
Movement: No, I wish!
Food cravings: Snow Cones! I am eating one as I type!
Gender: I am thinking a boy right now
Labor Signs: Nope!
Belly Button in or out? In
What I miss: I wonder what it feels like to be a "normal" person again. I feel much better these days but I still don't feel right
What I am looking forward to: Feeling movement
Weekly Wisdom: Enjoy this time. It's an amazing thing!

Monday, May 11, 2009

I had my 2nd Ultrasound Last Friday!

Last Friday I was scheduled to have my second ultrasound. I could hardly sleep the night before. I was nervous since at my last ultrasound the tech scared the crap out of me! I convinced I was going to hear the dreaded words of "miscarriage". Jason was able to attend this appointment with me which I was greatful in case I needed moral support.

Once we were taken back to the ultrasound room we immediately were able to make out the baby on the screen. We could determine the head, the arms, and legs without the tech pointing out what was what. It was wonderful to see our squirming baby on the screen. What was even better was seeing the baby's heart flicker! The tech told us the baby had a healthy heartbeat at 177.....yes 177!! It was a big relief to hear it was that high after my last ultrasound. The baby measured bigger than the last ultrasound and the due date has officially been moved to December 12, 2009 (which seems like a long way away!). Ahh, I am very relieved!!

I have scheduled my next appointment for June 2, 2009. I will have a NT Scan performed which means I will be able to see the baby again. Yay!!

Wednesday, May 6, 2009

Dear Little .04oz Baby Jason,

You are kicking your mama's butt! For the last 4 weeks I can't keep my eyes open. My once exciting life now consists of me sleeping on the couch or me sleeping in my bed. The food I once enjoyed now no longer tastes good. I am nauseous when I am hungry, I am nauseous when I eat. When I do find something I can manage to eat, I get this incredible heart burn that could be mistaken for heart attack pains. I think I make a trip to the bathroom every 2 hours - it's like clockwork. My boobs are so sore, I feel like my skin is going to bust (no pun intended). Little Baby Jason, you may be little but you have definitely made your presence known!!

Even with all my discomfort, I'll gladly take all the pain if that means you are growing to be big and strong!! Your well being is my top priority. The greatest gift I could ever receive is a healthy baby. So Little Baby Jason, do what you need to do and I will find a way to get through these next 32 weeks!

Joe Mama

8 Week Poll!

How far along? 8 weeks and 3 days
Total weight gain/loss: I have gained 3 pounds since last week so I back to my Pre-Pregnancy Weight
Maternity clothes? I thought about investing in the bella band since my pants are too tight
Stretch marks? Nope
Sleep: I have gotten my fair share! Still sleeping every chance I get
Best moment this week: I am looking forward to my second ultrasound on Friday.
Movement: I have a LONG TIME before I feel any movement!
Food cravings: Umm, I hate food at the moment
Gender: I have no idea, nor do I want to find out
Labor Signs: Oh God no!
Belly Button in or out? In
What I miss: I don't remember what it feels like not to have morning sickness. I just want to feel like my old self
What I am looking forward to: Getting out of the 1st Tri and feeling better
Weekly Wisdom: Just hang on, hopefully I will feel better
Milestones: I am having my second ultrasound this week. I will be sure to post my first pic!

Monday, May 4, 2009

The bottome line is, I'm selfish

Sometimes I catch myself wondering what the rest of my pregnancy will bring. Some of the thoughts that come to my head are very stressful. I am stressed I will get incredibly huge these next few months. I'm stressed that something will go terribly wrong during the delivery. I'm stressed that I'll not have a healthy baby. Basically, I'm stressed about the whole pregnancy process!!

Then I remember, this is just the beginning of it. My pregnancy fears don't even come close to the reality of raising a kid. My lifetime of worrying will have just begun after the labor and delivery. At times I think I am borderline crazy for having a baby. Kids are ridiculously expensive, I'll have considerably less freedom, they're a TON of work for very little recognition and honestly, they can down right be a total pain in the ass. For a while I thought I had convinced myself that this kid thing wasn't for me. The one main factor that almost did my baby dream in was......TEENAGERS!!! Really, who willingly would put themselves through that hell? Why did I get pregnant when I know good and well there is no such thing as a pleasant teenager? It wasn't too long ago when I was a teenager myself. I remember all the grief and unnecessary headaches I gave my parents. God bless their souls for putting up with my crap. From a non-emotional view it makes absolutely no sense why I would ever want a child!!

I have thought this through and through and the only answer I can come up with is I'm selfish. The reason why I am willing to sign myself up for a life time of energy and worry is for the self satisfaction I will receive out of it. I am looking forward to the feeling I'll get when my child takes his/her first steps, speaks their first words, starts their first day of kindergarten and when they graduate college. Before, I got joy from a new Coach Bag or a new pair of Stuart Weitzman Strappy Sandals. My previous self centered, materialistic lifestyle will soon be given up for a 6 month old who will project bodily fluids on/at me. It will be those important and not so important milestones in my child's life that will be so rewarding. This will be one instance where my selfish actions will not be looked down upon because they're selfless. It's this "selfish selflessness" that's giving me the courage to bring a child into this world.