Bathing Suit Drama

This has not my finest year when it comes to working out.  So shoot me now that it's swimsuit season.  I am 10 lbs over my pre-pregnancy weight.  Yuck.  10 lbs doesn't sound all that bad but considering last month I was 1 lb away it's not good.  How I have managed to GAIN 9 lbs in a month??!  Oh yeah, I eat bad and don't work out.  That's right.


::sigh:: 


I have succumbed to the fact it's going to take me a LONG time to get back in Bikini shape.  Like maybe years.  For real.  You know what's sad?  Prior to my pregnancy I use to think I was too fat to wear a bikini.  Ha!  Wanna see a pic?

OMG, I just posted a pic of me in a bathing suit on the internet.


Yeah, I was dumb.  I WISH I looked like that now!  While I might not be a Victoria's Secret bathing suit model, I actually think I look kinda good.  Kinda.


These days you couldn't pay me to get into a two piece and wear it out in public.  I still have that pesky line down my belly from my pregnancy.  Seriously, when will that thing ever go away?  So that coupled with my extra "fluffiness" that I have acquired over that last year makes me look like a train wreck with a bikini on.  Well, shit, who am I kidding.....I look like a train wreck with a one piece on. 


So this weekend I went bathing suit shopping.  And it was the most depressing thing ever.  But I have to wear something to the beach.  I can't wear jeans and a t-shirt......although it is temping.


This is what I bought....

Unfortunately, it doesn't look like this on me.  But it was the one suit that didn't make me want to cry when I tried it on.  And speaking of trying on swimsuits......who the eff decided it was a good idea to put those lights in dressing rooms?  Isn't it the goal of department stores to sell bathing suits?  Or is it their goal to make you feel bad about yourself?  Me thinks it's the latter. 


Anyway, this suit works for me because it has a full coverage bottom which I need.  I would like to cover the stretch marks I got on my ass while I was pregnant as much a possible.  Off topic - why did I get stretch marks on my butt and not my stomach?  Did my ass grow at a faster rate than my belly?  Apparently so.......


Another reason why this suit is great is because it has tummy control.  Which is something else I desperately need.  Sometimes I catch a glimpse of myself in the mirror and at the right angle I look 5 months pregnant.  Yeah, it's been 5 months since I been pregnant so this is not the look I am going for.....


And that's my bathing suit drama.  But I wouldn't trade one fat roll for a day without my Macy!  She's well worth the extra cellulite!  Love my baby girl!